Memories

At first I was alone, but I was too young to understand. I did not realize that I had been turned loose to the street, left at some shelter, or simply abandoned or neglected. I was never alone, though, for you were out there somewhere, waiting for me. Whether you knew it at the time or not, such was the case, for there was a higher authority with a plan for us.

The day we met, you won my heart. You took me in and showed me what I had never known. Until that time, I never knew anyone could be so full of love; I never knew the world to be so grand.

For years I patiently stood, waiting by the door for you to return from work, the grocery store, or wherever it was you had gone; I longed for every moment spent with you. It never mattered where we were, or what we did, only that you let me be by your side; that you touched me, and let me touch you. I simply loved to be with you. I especially liked it when you let me sleep with you.

My mind is full of sweet memories. I remember you taking me to the park and letting me chase the squirrels and ducks — and even though you weren’t supposed to let me off the leash, you did; thanks. I remember the other dogs we met and the others in our pack. I remember the car rides with my face in the wind, and how wonderful it was to drink in all the smells. I remember the treats and how good they tasted, even if you didn’t let me eat the whole box of biscuits in one sitting. But most of all, I remember you and how happy you made me feel.

I’m older now, much older, and I can no longer run as I used to love so much. My bones ache and I tire easily, even after only a short walk. Sometimes, it’s even hard just to stand up, as my hips are not what they once were. But, I still love you just as much as before, and I know that you still love me. I still wag my tail when I see you, or when you look at me, even though I’m too tired to move. I’m okay for now, but I know that one day this will end. I don’t know how or why I know this, but I do. I don’t want to leave you — ever, but I know that one day I will. I don’t know what will happen after that, but I do know that whatever does happen, you will always love me.

I guess what I’m really saying is, thanks. Thanks for being there for me, and for loving me when I was otherwise unwanted. Thanks for taking care of me all these years, and for tolerating me when I acted up. You are the greatest person in the world — and my love for you (my commitment to you), is deeper than you can ever imagine. I also wanted to tell you that, when the time comes, do not be afraid to let me go, to let me rest. My body will not last forever, but my love for you will endure long after I take my last breath. Not even death can cleave a gap between us, for what we share is eternally strong and endless in nature.

Yes, this is what I would tell you if I could speak, what I would think if I possessed such power of reason to understand why I feel the way I do.

So, I simply ask you this: when the time comes, let me be, but hold me close once more before I go, and kiss me softly between the eyes, as you always did. Of all the memories, I liked this one the best, so make it my last. I love you.

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